Tiny Choices

I usually notice it first as an outward manifestation of what's going on inside.  Perhaps I just won't be able to jog as quickly, or it'll take an extra cup of coffee to get me going, or it'll take an extra shimmy to get into those pants.  It's usually a sluggishness that will start to come forward and is a sign for me that I've been disconnected from my choices and because of that, I'm not always making the right ones.  

For me these choices include not eating mindfully or often enough and when I do, not eating the right foods. I go to foods that are quicker, easy to assemble meals, many meals out, definitely alcohol.  All of these things don't serve me or my body being and feeling my best.  When I feel this way (as I do right now as I'm typing this), I know that I've got to stop, listen, hold myself accountable, and start making better tiny decisions.  

I'm grateful when it happens and I can notice it, because now I listen.  When I do, I know I can pause, Remind myself of my tools, and start putting them in place to get me back to a place of peace and health and equilibrium that helps me feel more connected to self and ultimately much happier.  

It's easy to forget, though.  Which is why we all need support.  Support of people, habits, teams of people, most importantly, support of self FROM self.  

Though my current habits and choices are very strong and deliberate, I am not immune to making unconscious choices.  Admittedly too, there are times where circumstances have felt large and dense and challenging.  When those moments arise for me, I know I've got to revert back to Foundational stuff.  And all of that is built on tiny, almost micro, choices.  It's a cycle of pausing, noticing, asking myself what I need and want, evaluating the choices, making the one that serves me best.  It takes a bit of energy and it certainly takes time, but it helps me re-establish connection with myself and Remind myself to make choices from a place of presence.  Afterwards, I gotta say, I love myself even more :)

It dawns on me that what I'm writing about today is just as much for me as it is for any of you.  I have lost focus a bit.  I have been distracted.  I forgive myself.  Starting with the very next tiny choice I make, I'm going to make a better one.  

Feeling big love and gratitude for myself :)  and wishing the same for you.